The Reason...

Ok if you're wondering where I've been (probably not I only have like 2 followers _-_) I've been on Tumblr! And I still have no clue what I want to do there! *even though my Best Friend told me like a million times =_=* But I did my nails today! Yay! ^^ They're yellow! *and purple*

[영웅] 잡을 수도 없는 걸 더는 갖지 못할걸 미련만이 남아 있는 걸
기적 같은 꿈을 너는 바랬지만 그런 일도 없는걸 너는 모든 걸 다 평가해 돈이 안 되는건
필요 없지 이젠 사랑도 버렸고 믿음도 잃었어 그 누구라도 버릴 수 있어
You can't hold onto it. You can't get anymore. There's only attachment left.
You were hoping for a miracle-like love, but there is no such thing.
You rate everything and you don't need anything that doesn't deal with money.
You've thrown away love and lost faith. You can throw away whoever you want.

5

Don't ask about the title cause I have absolutely no idea xD

So my school is extremely stupid. -_- We're all broke and at the end of the day they called seniors into the auditorium to tell us this. They were complaining about not having money for our prom cause nobody was paying. Do you know why nobody was paying? They were asking for too freaking much. >_> If somebody asked you to pay $260 in dues and then an EXTRA $80 for prom *which is stupid since prom should be included in dues _-_* you wouldn't pay it right? *unless you're super rich and if that's the case then you can give me some money -.-* The dues were originally for a senior T-shirt, Graduation, Senior Activities and a Yearbook *that's if you got the expensive $260 Package A*. The cheap one only paid for graduation *$150*. We got our Senior T-shirts, Graduation and Yearbook costs were set aside and we did absolutely no senior activities. Since they DECLINE everything we suggest and no other ideas are brought up, we're obviously not doing anything this year. So why can't they take the money from our dues and put that towards prom since they need the money oh so badly? >-> I don't give a flying fart because I don't care about prom. Yeah I know I'm weird, what's wrong with me? Nothing's wrong with me! *I'm from Neptune ^^* I just see no point in spending $80 to get a little slip of paper that allows you into a hotel ballroom or whatever to dance to a bunch of ghetto music that I don't give a crap about and I know I'm not going to dance to it. I would be paying freaking $80 to stand around in an expensive dress *cough*more money*cough* and talk to people that I talk to throughout the school day *it's not even that many >_>*. I probably will never understand why Americans make a big deal out of prom. It's not different from any other school dance except it costs more so it's just a big rip off of money. I had a friend from Puerto Rico and he said there, they don't really care about prom and not a lot of people go. So it really is an American thing right! *wonders what they do in Japan and Korea*

Dentist!

Lalala can't say I didn't blog today! I can't stay on my schedule though...=( Oh well! Ugh! I have to go to the dentist soon! >=( *wonders if I can make myself have an allergic reaction to something O.o*

SAT Subject Tests

So I'm supposed to be taking the SAT Subject test today-Math 2 and Chemistry. But I really didn't feel like it. -_- I talked to grammy about it last night and she said I didn't have to take it if I didn't want to...so I'm not taking it. ^^ I started watching an anime called Hakuouki in the beginning of last year and ended up having to wait for season 2 cause it wasn't coming out until fall. Over time I forgot about it, but I just remembered it last night so I started watching season 2. That show is kind of depressing but it's good! O.o Oh well. -_- I have to piss. >_> ASIANS!

Lalala!

Ok yeah I didn't feel like blogging yesterday so what? Nothing happened. I still need to work on my freaking Korean letter but I have absolutely no idea what to put in it! *or where to mail it to _-_* This is so frustrating!

CiCi's Pizza!!!!

So after school I pretty much slept all day...-_- I have Physics homework to do and one problem for Calculus! The Physics might be hard @_@ Anyway yesterday we got our report cards and since I did so good on mine, she bought me a whole CiCi's Pizza today! It was the veggie pizza ^^ I should have taken a picture but...it was pretty much all gone by the time I came home. >_> So let me go do my homework...Booooo!!!

Mm Hmm

So I'm back to my stupid busy schedule *yay! >_>* and hardly have any time during the day now. I was prepared to type a long and funny blog about my day but it's almost bedtime so you'll get it short and simple. -_- Maybe tomorrow will be better *I know for a fact that tomorrow will be better ^-^* Anyway I just read some depressing *to me anyway >->* news...My favorite band that got split up and 3 left their agency/company people had a court hearing today at 3 PM *it sucks that I was in school at the time...not like I would have made it there anyway =.=* These poor guys really need my prayers more than ever so I'm going to pray more than I ever did in my life! I refuse to give up on them! *determined* We will all get through this! *and those company people are about to seriously get blown up >=(* Oh! I was in this model competition thingy and I was good enough to get a one year contract with the company! *maybe they can take me over to Korea so I can have a little chat with those stupid people...* Good Night! Love all my Asians! ^^

>_>

So...we got school tomorrow...and guess who's not ready to go back. -_- Anyway today was Martin Luther King's birthday celebration so my grammy, 2 of my cousins and I went to some rally thingy. It was boring so we left to go to Cici's pizza >_< Then we came back home and watched Sister Sister! Whooooooooooo!!!! Then when they left I was kind of rushing to get ready for school cause I wanted to get back to my Korean music! ^^ and some lady nominated me for some thing so I had to type something >_> *you see how much information I get in all the stuff I'm involved in _-_* So I'm going to go exercise for a little bit then learn this Japanese song! *it's my favorite Koreans singing it though ^^* Oh! Yesterday I watched Matilda! That movie is awesome! =) Welp that's all that's going on in my life! LATERZ!

...

So I *half* finished my firework! I actually finished most of it, I just couldn't get the last pieces to come together. *stupid thing* Well tomorrow I'm going to a rally-type thingy and it's the last day of the break. Boooooo! Anyway today I watched the last performance of my favorite Korean band *DBSK/DBSG/TVXQ* and I freaking cried! They did too! *that was the main reason =(* Whenever I see other people cry, I start too. *don't know what I'm going to do at graduation* Maybe I'll be heartless and laugh at all the crying people! Whooooooo! Nope I'm playing...or am I? O.o So I'm going to write a better letter to all of my Koreans *that's a lot of work >_>* and hope that they all get my crap. *I'll do all the work when I find out where to send it. Yep still no luck with that _-_* Nothing happened today. Oh! Sometime yesterday I made spaghetti and almost died! No I'm playing *maybe -_-* but I was talking to my best friend when I did it! Whooooooo! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Byes! ^^

=O

So guess what! I didn't forget to blog yesterday! I just fell asleep right before I meant to . -_- So yesterday I did nothing but I was talking to my best friend and I was reminded of this Asian in my 2nd period! *don't ask how cause I don't remember >_>* Anyway that Asian made origami stars out of straws! Amazing right? Cause she's gangster like that! xD Anyway I never asked her to teach me but I really wanted to learn so I looked it up yesterday! But instead of making stars, I ended up making these fireworks! And it's really cool! *at least it would be if I finished the thing -.- I was working on it for freaking 3 hours! *which is why I fell asleep before I blogged >_>* Anyway let me see if I can get the video up...

Oh my gosh I got it!!!!! ^-^ *major accomplishment in my life xD* So I'll post again later today! LATERZ! ASIANS!!!

Urg!

Why do I keep forgetting to post?! I know! Because nothing interesting is happening in my life! *nods head* That's exactly what it is. -_- So nothing happened today except for me taking a nap. Everyone is ready to go back to school since they're getting 'bored' at home. Well let me tell you as soon as they get back in school they're going to be ready to go right back home! I swear teenagers are so bipolar it's ridiculous. >_> *yes I am including myself in that @_@* Anyway nothing happened today but I think I might write a letter to my favorite Korean band! PEACE! ^^ *now if only I could find out where to mail the stupid thing _-_*

O.o

So I never got around to drawing...-_- Instead I took a nap! =) But no school tomorrow so I will be up all night! ^o^ Whooooooooo hoooooo!!!! It's some people outside making a lot of noise and I have no clue what they're trying to do. >_> But I might actually start drawing now *wonder how many times I said that xD* cause I'm bored and don't know what to do! *my iPod died on me so it needs to charge -__-*

*sigh*

I forgot to blog again yesterday =/ So I'm planning a trip to Korea and Japan *don't know how that's going to work. It's a lot of money -.-* Who has any idea where to start?! O.o I need a shower..._-_ And I might go deaf soon...O.O Uh...nothing much to talk about _._ I'm still out of school and I am REALLY enjoying myself! ^-^ The only sucky thing is that we might have to make up for the days that we're out >.> Our county is really stupid so they might try to make us come to school on Saturday or take away our breaks or something >=( We don't NEED to be in school >_> Who said school had to be 180 days anyway? *they were stupid and on crack -_-* At least I think that's how long we have to be in school...I'm going to start drawing soon! *for real this time* It's a guy from one of my other favorite Korean bands *I almost completely stopped listening to American music xD Koreans have taken over my brain!* That's why I MUST go there! And I'm just going to Japan cause I'm obsessed with Japanese stuff xD *perfectly normal right?* Anyways I'll be back on later! *hopefully I'll be finished with my second pic ^-^*




You know Asians can do just about anything! That's why they are so awesome! ^-^ I am so proud to call myself an imaginary African American Asian (that's a lot of A's O.o) but a truely dedicated Asian lover! xD

No School!

We didn't have school today! Why you ask? Because it snowed! And I'm not talking about those little flurries that don't even matter, I'm talking about a super-duper amount of snow! *at least the most that my state will ever see cause it rarely snows here -_-* Anyway nothing happened except I was being lazy. I didn't play in the snow today. Boooooo! But it better still be there tomorrow and that will be the first thing I do after I wake up! Yay! I have to pee. >_> I'm going to get started on another picture now so later! It's a picture of an Asian! ^-^ I'll upload my other artwork whenever I feel like it *in other words you may never see the pics >_>* Bye Bye! =)

^o^

My second post for the day! *right after the first -_-* I finished the picture I drew! It was of one of the Asians in my favorite band. ^-^ And I will start working on the others =) I'm praying REALLY hard for it to snow tomorrow! Please let it snow! *start's singing the song* I really don't have anything to talk about...*more like I don't feel like talking cause I still have Physics homework I have to do >_>* Well I guess I'll go do that now. BYE!

ASIANS!

No!

I totally forgot to post yesterday! =( My brother came over and we drew a picture and *tried* learning a dance! We got like half of it before he had to leave. Anyway I'm going to post twice today! And this is the first...

Dong Bang Shin Ki

Ok I said I was going to talk about Asians so here I go!

My favorite Korean boy band was a group called Dong Bang Shin Ki (their Korean name). Now when I became a fan of theirs (around the end of last November), the band was actually on hiatus. They had been around since 2006, but here in America we don't here about all that stuff. Why? Cause we're so caught up with ourselves, being stupid, conceited and selfish (of course I don't mean everyone).  Anyway, my Tomato sent me an e-mail that said "Here's a new Asian band (JYJ) we can follow (all of their songs were in English)." I checked the e-mail and checked out their songs and enjoyed them. Now I never looked back at that e-mail (or the band -.-) or anything, but then my Best Friend had one of their Korean songs on her Facebook and I fell in love with that too. My slow self didn't even realize the song Best Friend had posted and the one my Tomato e-mailed me about were actually the same band (I did end up making the connection >_<).  Anyway, I watched their YouTube videos and I saw these comments saying stuff like "Always Keep The Faith," "TVXQ/Dong Bang Shin Ki Forever," and whatever and after reading all these comments with all these different names, I decided to do a little research.  Now after researching, I found that those 3 Asians were part of a Korean band named Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki) which cleared up that little name misunderstanding I had.  I also found out that their were originally 5 guys in the band and those particular 3 left the agency they had a contract under. So I looked up one of their music videos and automatically fell in love with it! Then I looked up more songs and just kept falling in love! ^-^ Have you ever heard a person say "I have never disliked a single one of his/her/their songs?" Well I'm saying it now! I like all of their songs (I do have a list of favorites but I don't dislike any of their songs). All 5 of the guys have their talents that they contribute to the group and each of them is special.  After doing more research I found that the 3 who formed JYJ (the band Best Friend and Tomato found) filed a lawsuit against the agency and left to go on their own path, but the other 2 stayed under the agency.  Because the other 3 didn't come back to the agency, DBSK was put on hiatus. =( Why did they file the lawsuit? Good question! According to some source (don't remember where I read it -_-) the agency was like "You can't work with any other company," they were under a 13-year contract, and getting paid 30% of the money while the agency got 70%. Sounds unfair right? Sure. But I really don't know what to think anymore.
  Yes 13 years is a long time, but why did the guys agree to this long-term contract in the first place? I want to know what happened there. -__- Second, if the agency pays for everything they do, I can kind of understand them having to make more. But I've had some sources say the company pays for their travel expenses and all that other crap, and then other sources say that the boys in the band had to pay for their own stuff (they traveled back and forth between Korea, Japan, and most of the Asian countries a lot). Some people say the dispute was because the 3 were investing in a Chinese cosmetics company or something to earn more money and the agency restricted them from doing that.

I really don't know what to do anymore. =/ This is a band who is in the freaking Book of World Records for having the biggest fan club! (or something like that >.> I just generalize the information I read so I might be getting something wrong.) But now this fan club (we call ourselves Cassieopeias or Cassies for short) is kind of splitting apart because their siding with the 3 who left the agency or the 2 who stayed.  I love all 5 of them so what do I do? If we (speaking as a group of Cassies) choose not to support one band over the other or don't support them at all, then they may be completely removed from the market.  If we support both bands, the competition for our favor may grow and they may never get back together.  And now I'm hearing all these fans who constantly check the artists Twitter accounts or whatever, and now other artists under that same agency are commenting on the problem and some fans aren't too happy about that. Is it right for other artists to comment on these problems? Does it make sense if they've been with them longer? Technically speaking, they're probably closer to the guys than any of the fans will ever be and since they're directly involved, can't they get a better understanding of what's going on? Can the fans really comment on things when we don't even know the whole story? We don't know why these people act the way the do or why they are doing what they're doing. We're just stuck in the middle, arguing back and forth, without even knowing what's going on. We'll soon all look like idiots -_- (if we don't already).

Is it possible that the agency wanted this? Ever since I saw the Cheetah Girls (first movie), I just think it's hard to figure out what producers and whoever else is involved are thinking. In Cheetah Girls, the girls wanted to become popular, they met a producer, and apparently the producer tried to break them up and get one to go solo, break up their friendship, or something (it's been a while since I've seen it). Anyway his plan didn't work and the 4 girls stayed friends. =) *which led to a 2nd movie* Like what if this was the plan all along? Have the boys be popular for a good amount of time, they reached Number 1 in Asia, and then something has to go wrong to get them out of the picture. Maybe they think, "They'll be done for as artists but we'll have new talents coming in so it doesn't really matter to us.  Once they get old, they can't make us anymore money so why keep them around?"

We all say we're offering them support, but what can we do when we don't even know half of the situation? We leave our comments on YouTube, on blogs, and whatever else can be commented on but are they reading them? We scream in their concerts "You can count on us to support you!" but then we turn around and start fighting with each other. Aren't we all supposed to be there for all 5 guys to lean on because they are all suffering right now? We're all just lost and confused and I honestly don't know how things are going to work out. _-_ I am praying for them though and hope everything works out in the best way.  I feel ridiculously depressed right now sitting here typing this. >_>

I think we're all just trying to find somebody to blame (me included -_-) and looking for the best solution possible (for most, that would be all 5 guys getting back together). I think I'm going to step back from the subject, just keep praying, and stop stressing myself out over something that's technically not my problem. I will keep praying though! (encourages you all to pray too -_-)

Just a random thought (and I'm not trying to give anybody any ideas or be a terrorist type person) but: what if a fan was so obsessed with all the guys that she went to the agency's main building and threatened to blow them up because she thought they were really suffering because of the agency? (I'm talking about somebody who is actually psycho enough to do it >_>) Would they let the group get back together again because they didn't want to die? O.o *this is too much drama >__>* We're all going to die! _-_

Goodness this was long...=/

Toilets!

I was on the toilet typing my blog and I vented my feelings so I feel much better now ^-^ *you will never know what my other post said >.>* I think I really do need help though @_@

ASIANS WILL ALWAYS BE AWESOME! ^-----^

To make me feel even better!





I want to dance on water now! *leaving to go flood my bathroom O.o*

=3

 In the last post I had a sad face, but this time it's a smiley face! ^-^

I'm doing good so far! Blogging everyday! *even though all of thm have been pointless until now* _-_ Ok so I'm going to make this quick because I'm about to go to bed! My first period was just like first period. And it will always be like first period! My second period was funny! ^-^ *at least I thought so >.>* But that lady gives way too much work! _-_ Stupid person. Anyway, third period...the dude talked too much again and I still had my little side comments about almost everything he said. America bombed Japan so Japan was FORCED to trade with us?! I don't remember being told that! I guess someone knew if they told me I would have went off! *I so wanted to go off and blow the whole school up then but that was a lot of work -.-* Oh! I'm not a terrorist I promise! xD Anyway fourth period my Spanish teacher had something interesting to talk about...like always! ^-^ Today she made the Bible sound really funny. xD *she wasn't making fun of it just the way she told the stories was funny* Oh! And the most randomest random thing happened today! I have a tall Asian friend *whose name you don't need to know because if he catches you stalking him he'll know it was all my fault! -.-* and he came up behind me I think after second period and I was with my best friend cause we share a locker. So he came up behind us and Best Friend was like 'Back Off!' *cause he always tries to beat me up xD* and he was just kind of scared (XD) and then Best Friend was like 'Hey you smell good! Can I smell you?' And then I was like 'Oh! I want to smell too!' So we both sniffed him *weird I know xD* And it was like a ghost possessed me or something cause I sniffed his neck! O.o *he was bending down so it was really easy to get to* and then before he left he hugged me around my waist! I was like O.o *he never did that before...of course I never sniffed his neck before either -.-* Anyway this semester isn't nearly as bad as the last! *not yet anyway _._* So I did talk about an Asian today! Oh! And in second period some Asian dude kept walking behind me and my best friend's desk *we sit right next to each other* and we just kept cheering cause of that! Aren't we so slow?!?!?! XD

I'm getting better at talking about this Asian stuff! >.<

=(

Well I keep saying I'm gonna try to make my posts more and more interesting but guess what?! Today I have a serious migraine =/ I went to school today though and I said it was going to be a good day! So you know what? It wasn't! Nope I'm playing, it was much better than I expected. =) I have 2 whole classes with my best friend! *who better not drop out of one of them -.-* But I don't have any classes with my Tomato! Boooo! =( Anyway because of my migraine, I'm really not in the mood to blog *even though I typed out a whole paragraph already >_>*. Anyways! I'm happy about my schedule (even though I still don't like my school -.-) and I just wanted to let you all know because you all care SO MUCH (yeah right _-_)! I PROMISE I'll really start blogging about my Asians really soon! *don't hold me to my promises >_>* Oh! And speaking of Asians, I have like 5 in my 2nd period class! You don't know how happy I was to see them! ^-^ And I got so excited cause One of them had to pass out papers and he actually knew my name and didn't have to ask anybody else in the class! I was like 'YES! This is the start of a great stalker-like friendship! (I am TOTALLY -not really- playing! xD)' Even though I said I wasn't in the mood to blog I sure wrote a lot huh? O.o Anyway I'm REALLY gone now!

*comes back to see if you're still reading o.o*

AH!

NOTHING HAPPENED TODAY! *except I actually studied and almost forgot to blog O.o* Uh...Good night! *I'm going to bed now >.>*

KOREANS!!!!!!!!

Interesting....

Hmmmm...I don't have much to say today O.o I watched my little sister and went to church...then I pretty much chilled the rest of the day (listening to my Korean music the whole time). Yeah I know I don't give my iPod a break >.< *sigh* You guys might have to wait for me to get more exciting with my blog =/ I had another one and on that one I could rant on forever and ever...what's wrong with me now? _-_ I'll get more lively I promise! This first week is just a warm up from not blogging in a LONG time! I'm sure once school starts back up I'll have a lot more to talk about. But until then Dong Bang Shin Ki Fighting! *that's kind of a famous battle cry xD* OH! But today is January 2, 2011 and do you know what that means?! Two of the guys from my favorite Korean band (their names are Max Changmin and U-Know Yunho) should have released their new album today!!! Maybe if I can get it, I'll put up some sample songs! ^-^

And in case you're wondering "What was the point of putting up this pointless post if she had absolutely nothing to talk about?" Well I'll tell you! I promised myself that this year I would blog EVERY DAY so I'm trying not to miss a day! Even if nothing happened and if I just type "Hi!" in the blog to say I posted then that's what I'll do!!!!!

Oh and I'm also trying to learn Korean and Japanese (I would kind of like to know what these songs are talking about -.-) so if anyone knows any good (and FREE) websites to learn these languages and would like to share them with me, me would be very grateful! *I have to teach myself from my little room until I actually get the chance to go to Korea/Japan >.>* m(_ _)m

Happy New Year!

Welcome into the New Year! =) Well this will definitely be a really random blog! Mostly about Asians (as you can see in the title) and FOOD! *the most important thing in the universe* Ok so near the end of November, I got interested in this Korean band called Dong Bang Shin Ki and I just can't stop listening to their music! They are just that good. =) I have never been this passionate about a band since...never! They are so...So...GANGSTER!!! But they were screwed over by their agency company producer people (for the most part anyway) =/ Well I really don't feel like writing anymore so...maybe I'll have more tomorrow! OKIES LATER!!!

Azian Luver!
--*wonders if you think I can't spell* xD